I had a productive morning. Got a lot done. Then, I talked to my Dad.
Well, Mom went to the doctor. Thanks to Sherry (thank you Sherry) my Dad did go with her. He stayed quiet until the very end and asked two questions that she didn't. I told him today how proud I am of him, and that he is a wonderful husband.
The MRI showed some other spots of concern. Mom will have another biopsy this afternoon. I know it is good that she is in the beginning stages of all of this and that the doctors aren't in a panic. But it's cancer. I hate the "C" word, and I am very mad at it right now.
I know we are blessed, and it could be so much worse. Until I know the plan of action I think I will be in this funk that I can't seem to get out of. I am strong for Mom, laugh, get her mind off of it, hang out. So, really, just doing what we always do. She's my friend. But again, it's cancer. It is an unknown territory whose road I just want to be the hell off of. I want this journey over and done with for her, for us all.
I don't know if this is a road that we will be on for just a short time, or if it will be a really long road. That is what sucks about it. I thank God for the resources we have, for the health that she has, yet it is still scaring the s*** out of me (excuse my french).
Right now, I just don't feel like doing anything. I really just want to go and lay in bed and push the buttons on the remote. I feel guilty because it is a nice temperature out right now, and the girls should be out playing. I have packages to get shipped, swap things to finish, and need to get the rest of my French books wrapped up to go. I don't like to make these amazing artists wait for their books. I just don't feel like doing it right now. I don't feel like doing anything right now.
I know I am blessed and I am so thankful. I am just in a funk! As my Mom always says, this too shall pass. Sorry to be a bummer. I just felt that today I would use my blog for venting.
Love to all and have a great weekend!