Venting

First of all, hello to all of my blogging friends. Sorry for the lack of posts. Have been very busy with swaps and shipping items from my shop, both of which I love. I am addicted to swaps, and I love it when people buy from my shop. It is part of that "thing for me" which is very valuable to my life. Having my shop and this blog and all of you has just made my life even better. Thanks!

So, sorry to use my blog for complaining, I just really need to vent about this...

I LOVE doing swaps. Putting together a package for a new person and trying to make it extra fab to put a smile on their face, and then hearing from them and know how much they loved what I did for them just gives me SO much satisfaction. Naturally, I love getting goodies as well. But when they love what I have done for them it just really makes me feel good.

So, I did this awesome swap. I was so excited because it was SO me. It wasn't hard for me to put my swap buddies package together at all and I was thrilled to send it to her. She did a sneak peak for me and that made me even more excited.

I know is sounds lame, but I love it when the mail comes every day. I look forward to what surprises I might be getting. I sent my swap buddies package out and know that it made it to her home because I had a tracking number on it. I never received a package though, which is really weird seeing how she did a post about it.

I have emailed her several times at all available spots (shop, blog, etc.) but have not heard back. The last message was just to "please let me know you are okay". I am really, honestly, sincerely concerned that something has happened to her. She has not done any post for a long time.

Then I think, well, what if she didn't like what I sent her. I like getting that message that they received my gift and that it put a smile on their face. And I think that is what bums me the most. Not that I didn't receive mine, but that I didn't hear from her.

I finally sent the "host" an email about the situation, but never heard back.

When I get up in the morn, I get my cup of coffee, check my email, and go right to her sites to see if she has posted. I know it sounds psycho, I just pray that she is okay. Please say a prayer for this anonymous person, that they are well.

I feel so silly leaving this post, I just hope that it gives me a little relief. Once I push, "publish post" I really just want to be done with it and think about it no more. I do have that little thought in the back of my mind though, "What if I join this swap and never hear from my swap buddy?" And I am sure one of you have experienced this before. It just sucks. And if she is okay then I can just say to others that if you join a swap, please don't screw over your swap buddy. I understand now why some who host a swap are adamant about not doing so. I am really disapointed.

I really do hope she is okay.

Thanks for letting me vent.

R...