January 26, 2010
I Love You Sandee Puppy Love
I took this picture less then 24 hours ago. Sandee Puppy Love, sleeping with your girls and giving them lots of love. You looked so cute and I had to take a few pictures like I have done so many nights before. But this will be the last picture. This is my last picture of you.
Since your adventure two years ago, when you got out with Ohm and disappeared only to show up three days later. You crawled all that way home with a broken pelvis, and survived. I have been so hard core about not letting you both out at the same time. I would put you on the tether. But this morning, I didn't. You've been acting weird the past couple of weeks. Did you know this was coming? You even had a couple of accidents inside. I thought maybe your pelvis/bladder was bothering you and was starting to worry a bit. So this morning, when I thought you really needed to go, and I let you out even though I knew Ohm was out but he wasn't around when I called for him. It's all my fault. You ran up the back steps into the woods, sniffed for a bit and then ran behind the trampoline. I almost yelled for you to come back in, my usual paranoid self that something might happen to you.
Twenty minutes later, I heard Ohm barking in the front yard. I went out and he wouldn't come in. Just looking towards where you were, but I didn't know it at the time, barking like something was wrong. Just like he did the last time this happened. I yelled for you, thought maybe you were down the street with Tony. Ohm just wouldn't stop barking. I thought, "Is Sandee in front of that parked car there and I just can't see her?" I yelled to Ohm, "Go get Sandee Ohm. Go bring Sandee home".
Next think I know there is a message on the phone and I go to listen. It's a man telling me that my dog has been hit by a car and I need to call him. I freaked out. Threw clothes on Sophia and ran down the stairs, back to the phone to write down the mans address saying, "No, no, no". I heard Chuck at the front door and ran to it, swinging it open and yelled, "Sandee's been hit by a car". I knew by the look on his face. He said, "I know, she's in the car". I said, "Is she okay". No, she's dead.
I ran to the car and swung the door open, crying, "No, no, no, no, no". I just sat there holding you in my arms balling my eyes out. It's all my fault Sandee. I am so, so sorry.
The man who saw you get hit said it was a lady in a burgundy Explorer. She sped up, as if to hit you and just kept on going. He yelled at her, she ducked her head and sped away while my dog, my sweet little Sandee, screamed in pain. She dragged her little body to the side of the road and screamed for about two minutes before she finally died. My poor Sandee, suffered and died.
How can someone be so mean? How can someone hit an animal and just keep going? That dog is a part of our family. She takes care of me when I am sick or sad, plays with the girls and goes to bed with them. A devoted protector and love pup. And this girl just plowed her down and left her to suffer. Left her to die.
It's all my fault. Please forgive me Sandee.
Less then 24 hours ago, you were probably laying here beside me in the floor like you always do. Curled up at my feet. You sleep with the girls and then come in with me. You take all the blankets after you crawl under them and don't budge when I try to move you with my foot. And you lick my feet like crazy. So gross, but something I just finally became used to and it seemed to sooth me to sleep. I'll never sleep beside of you again. I won't wake to you in the morning.
Thank you for all of the wonderful memories throughout the years Sandee. You are such a good pup and we were so blessed to have you. I remember picking you out at the shelter, so scared with your little tale curled under. You were an instant part of our family. Oh my gosh, I just can't believe this is happening. I hope that you know how much we love you Sandee. How much you will be missed and how we will always remember you. Now go play in the fields with all of the other animals. Be at peace and we will see you one day when our time here is done.
All my love Sandee puppy love!